Ca Va? Oui, Ca Va!
Now it really is the last day of July! Pretty good day too. After breakfast I vacuumed and started some history. Colette said we were going to a store and out to lunch -- so I grabbed my purse and figured we'd be back by 2. Well - the store was great! Like America or something! I loved it! Automatic doors and huge isles. We ate in the cafeteria. It had a squiggly line to the cafeteria like and amusement park. Colette was totally lots! I laughed! They don't usually have those here. She couldn't believe they had paper napkins! So for 3 hours I felt like I was at home and Colette felt out of place.
After we went to see her pony. Spent a couple hours. The pony is really pretty. No major upsets or happenings as of yet. Just a really nice day.
Colette and I have even been talking a bit.
I came home and wrote Simkins and Rob. I love Mrs S letters. She always puts in info about home - not stuff that makes me feel homesick and she doesn't ask how's this and that and not tell me how she is. It is cool. And I'm never expecting them - they are always a surprise!
My history is really difficult now. Not only am I tired of doing it but I can't find much of whats left to find! Oh well.
I'm taking this one day at a time. Today was really nice. The weather was chilly! About 70 degrees and not much sun. Yesterday was 86, now 70. Insane!
We made dinner together and watched another great movie with Jane Fonda.
Then we did dishes together. Amazing. The two of us talked. Even at lunch we were talking.
Tonight I really saw the Eiffle tower and the lights great. It is so beautiful! Perhaps praying is really helping. Things have been good this week. Really good and gone fast. And I haven't been bored. Maybe if I keep trying really hard to communicate this will be more fun. I enjoy having an hour to myself before going to bed to write in my journal, exercise, read the scriptures and fall asleep after praying and listening to my tapes. It's nice.
Bon Nuit
Bon Soir
Dormi Bien!
Thursday, July 31, 1986
Wednesday, July 30, 1986
07/30/86 Mercredi (Wednesday) Goals set
NO THIS ISN'T
This is it! The last day of July - I am making it!
Today was pretty good. We didn't do much. Got up around 10 and put away all the dishes from last night. Ate. Took a batch. Ate. Then I cleaned my bedroom real good. Dusted, Vacuumed under the bed and all the shelves. It was gross!
Decide and I went for about 1.5 hours through the country side and picked wild flowers.
We didn't really talk much. I guess we were both just thinking. Then I laid out in the sun for an hour. Decide left at 5. Next time he comes we will go to Honfleur. I can't wait!
I got a letter from Tammy and Jamie. Really cool!
Silly chick didn't even tell me about Utah!
I met 2 girls that are my age that live near here. Don't you know one of them is leaving for nice tomorrow morning! I have been praying so hard for something. I have decided to set goals for this next month.
1 - Make it through this summer and ENJOY it!
2 - Lose weight - 5 lbs to start with
3 - Finish all my history and English to the best of my ability
4 - Continue to read the Book of Mormon and enjoy it - whenever possible
5 - Try to understand and perhaps speak with these people
These goals are rather unspecific but it is better to have room to breath.
Still no luck with Tonya but I wrote a letter.
The last month could be good if I try to enjoy not doing much and continue to get along with Colette. We really have been communicating much better recently. I've been writing down some words and music for songs and that has helped me to get my mind off things. I feel good inside - like something great is going to happen. I hope I'm not just hoping. I hope something great does happen. I don't know what, just anything.
I really want to be able to go home with a good feeling about this trip. I keep thinking of all the great things I 'll do when I get back. Marching band doesn't seem fun anymore. I prefer work - why?
This diet things is going to be so hard! I have to wear a bathing suit soon though! I did 50 situps and hiney walks and squeezes. I've got to lose weight! From our walk today my legs look awful. They are all scratched and yucky. Oh well. I can't believe tomorrow is still July! Is is going fast and slow!
This is it! The last day of July - I am making it!
Today was pretty good. We didn't do much. Got up around 10 and put away all the dishes from last night. Ate. Took a batch. Ate. Then I cleaned my bedroom real good. Dusted, Vacuumed under the bed and all the shelves. It was gross!
Decide and I went for about 1.5 hours through the country side and picked wild flowers.
We didn't really talk much. I guess we were both just thinking. Then I laid out in the sun for an hour. Decide left at 5. Next time he comes we will go to Honfleur. I can't wait!
I got a letter from Tammy and Jamie. Really cool!
Silly chick didn't even tell me about Utah!
I met 2 girls that are my age that live near here. Don't you know one of them is leaving for nice tomorrow morning! I have been praying so hard for something. I have decided to set goals for this next month.
1 - Make it through this summer and ENJOY it!
2 - Lose weight - 5 lbs to start with
3 - Finish all my history and English to the best of my ability
4 - Continue to read the Book of Mormon and enjoy it - whenever possible
5 - Try to understand and perhaps speak with these people
These goals are rather unspecific but it is better to have room to breath.
Still no luck with Tonya but I wrote a letter.
The last month could be good if I try to enjoy not doing much and continue to get along with Colette. We really have been communicating much better recently. I've been writing down some words and music for songs and that has helped me to get my mind off things. I feel good inside - like something great is going to happen. I hope I'm not just hoping. I hope something great does happen. I don't know what, just anything.
I really want to be able to go home with a good feeling about this trip. I keep thinking of all the great things I 'll do when I get back. Marching band doesn't seem fun anymore. I prefer work - why?
This diet things is going to be so hard! I have to wear a bathing suit soon though! I did 50 situps and hiney walks and squeezes. I've got to lose weight! From our walk today my legs look awful. They are all scratched and yucky. Oh well. I can't believe tomorrow is still July! Is is going fast and slow!
Tuesday, July 29, 1986
07/29/86 Mardi (Tuesday) Still struggling
I can't believe it's still July. Every day seems to get slower than the one before it yet they go fast. Really weird!
Once again I sat home. Chapter 25 of history is finished except for one thought question. I finally go up the nerve to ask about the piano and the priest wasn't there. Oh well. At least now she knows I want to play anyway. We tried calling Tonya but she wasn't home again. No mail again today. I keep hoping for something. I haven't written back to everyone that wrote to me because I feel so blah - I don't want them to know it isn't as great as it sounds.
I sure hope Tonya comes and then we go to Normandy. That will make some time pass quickly. I really hope something comes thorough with church. That could make the stay here go really fast but who knows.
I've been praying every night that something will happen to make this more fun and easier. I even starting reading the Book of Mormon before I go to sleep once in awhile. It is more interesting than any of the other books. I'm trying really hard to finish my history work withing the next two weeks but what if I finish and then have nothing to do - or worse what if I don't finish! I don't know which is worse! Either way I'm gonna be upset with myself.
I sure hope the money system stays the same - I might even be able to come home with $50. I started speaking a little French today. I mean really saying little sentences and questions and stuff.
Decide says I have a very pretty accent and I should speak more often. I don't know.
Homesickness was more mild today then in a long time. I feel sad about my appearance. I've gained close to 10 lb already. Somehow I've got to stop eating or I'll be unhappy forever. My pants are even starting to feel tight. My stomach is bloated. It isn't flat anymore! I hate me!
Bon Soir Bon Nuit Dormi Bien
**After I wrote this we watched a super French movie that was partially in English. then Decide sang while I played the tiny organ. It was really fun. Tomorrow we have to do the dishes in the morning. Also Decide is leaving until maybe 15 days or less. That means more possible boredom. Of course Colette and I have been getting along better and she likes some of the things I have cooked recently.
Once again I sat home. Chapter 25 of history is finished except for one thought question. I finally go up the nerve to ask about the piano and the priest wasn't there. Oh well. At least now she knows I want to play anyway. We tried calling Tonya but she wasn't home again. No mail again today. I keep hoping for something. I haven't written back to everyone that wrote to me because I feel so blah - I don't want them to know it isn't as great as it sounds.
I sure hope Tonya comes and then we go to Normandy. That will make some time pass quickly. I really hope something comes thorough with church. That could make the stay here go really fast but who knows.
I've been praying every night that something will happen to make this more fun and easier. I even starting reading the Book of Mormon before I go to sleep once in awhile. It is more interesting than any of the other books. I'm trying really hard to finish my history work withing the next two weeks but what if I finish and then have nothing to do - or worse what if I don't finish! I don't know which is worse! Either way I'm gonna be upset with myself.
I sure hope the money system stays the same - I might even be able to come home with $50. I started speaking a little French today. I mean really saying little sentences and questions and stuff.
Decide says I have a very pretty accent and I should speak more often. I don't know.
Homesickness was more mild today then in a long time. I feel sad about my appearance. I've gained close to 10 lb already. Somehow I've got to stop eating or I'll be unhappy forever. My pants are even starting to feel tight. My stomach is bloated. It isn't flat anymore! I hate me!
Bon Soir Bon Nuit Dormi Bien
**After I wrote this we watched a super French movie that was partially in English. then Decide sang while I played the tiny organ. It was really fun. Tomorrow we have to do the dishes in the morning. Also Decide is leaving until maybe 15 days or less. That means more possible boredom. Of course Colette and I have been getting along better and she likes some of the things I have cooked recently.
Monday, July 28, 1986
07/28/86 Lundi (Monday) Trying to be optimistic
I stayed up until 2 a.m. or later translating things to say when I called the church office. I had a ral hard time getting to sleep.
At 6:30 a.m. Doug called just to say hi and see how I was and tell me he loved me and everybody else also loved me and missed me.
Colette was a little upset but it made me feel good.
I didn't wake up until 11.
Today I've been feeling a little better. I tried calling 2X to the church but no answer.
Tomorrow we are leaving for Holland/Belguim unless it storms. I don't know if we're going somewhere today. It is 3. Also very warm and sunny and nice.
I can't think because it makes me want to cry and be home. I can't concentrate on my history. I've been trying but my mind keeps wondering to hoe and Joe and Rob and everybody at home.
Decide said time was just something you passed in one place or another. Right now he says I'm playing with time and that I'm here but I'm also very much in America. How I wish I was all in America. I'm afraid things will have changed and I won't fit in or something. I hope this month goes FAST - PLEASE!
I'm afraid of going to Belgium - living in a car? Not understanding Colette.
I have to finish this history. Really has been getting to me. Maybe today I'll try to finish 4 - 8 then I'll be on my way to completion. That's my goal for today.
I complete my goal for today and some besides!
Colette had an accident so we aren't going to Holland after all.
I got a hold of the church office and thank goodness the lady spoke English. She said she'd see what they could do. I told her I wouldn't be here this week so I won't find out anything until Saturday I guess - I don't know.
I have to find some way to make this easier on myself. now I'm going full force into finishing my history assignment so if something great comes up I can take party and not worry, ya know?
Perhaps from no on I'll write only a page a day, then I won't have to buy a new book. One more day down, 32 to do. I have to do it!
Bon Soir
Bon Nuit
Dormi Bein
Cava? Oui CaVa!
At 6:30 a.m. Doug called just to say hi and see how I was and tell me he loved me and everybody else also loved me and missed me.
Colette was a little upset but it made me feel good.
I didn't wake up until 11.
Today I've been feeling a little better. I tried calling 2X to the church but no answer.
Tomorrow we are leaving for Holland/Belguim unless it storms. I don't know if we're going somewhere today. It is 3. Also very warm and sunny and nice.
I can't think because it makes me want to cry and be home. I can't concentrate on my history. I've been trying but my mind keeps wondering to hoe and Joe and Rob and everybody at home.
Decide said time was just something you passed in one place or another. Right now he says I'm playing with time and that I'm here but I'm also very much in America. How I wish I was all in America. I'm afraid things will have changed and I won't fit in or something. I hope this month goes FAST - PLEASE!
I'm afraid of going to Belgium - living in a car? Not understanding Colette.
I have to finish this history. Really has been getting to me. Maybe today I'll try to finish 4 - 8 then I'll be on my way to completion. That's my goal for today.
I complete my goal for today and some besides!
Colette had an accident so we aren't going to Holland after all.
I got a hold of the church office and thank goodness the lady spoke English. She said she'd see what they could do. I told her I wouldn't be here this week so I won't find out anything until Saturday I guess - I don't know.
I have to find some way to make this easier on myself. now I'm going full force into finishing my history assignment so if something great comes up I can take party and not worry, ya know?
Perhaps from no on I'll write only a page a day, then I won't have to buy a new book. One more day down, 32 to do. I have to do it!
Bon Soir
Bon Nuit
Dormi Bein
Cava? Oui CaVa!
Sunday, July 27, 1986
07/27/86 Diamanche (Sunday) Struggling
Today I got up and ate at 9:30. Colette told me she was going to church so I hurried in a little less than 20 minutes. I hurried down the stairs just in time to see Colette leave. Once again, no chruch. I could just cry. I got Beccas letter and it said all about everything at church and I want to go so bad. Why is this so hard?
I am so upset. I keep eating and eating and I'm going ruin everything. I worked so hard to lose weight and being here is making me fat. I'm going to forget how to play piano and flut and I'm never gonna be able to stand and march for 3 hours. I WANT TO GO HOME!!!Why is this so hard? Why? It as supposed to be fun wasn't it?No - just 'the experience of a lifetime'. I guess it is definately that. I hope I never have to do anything like this again. it wouldn't be so bad with friends. I'd probably be really great.
I did cry, for over an hour. I walked through the country crying. Steven the lawyer I met my first Sunday asked if I wanted a ride but silly me said no. Maybe he wants to be my friend. After I came home I cried again. I just felt miserable today. Then I slept a little. Then I finally pulled myself together so I could be sociable with Colette and Decide.
About 10 while we were eating Jeanette Berry called and we talked for 10 minutes. I managed to stay together and she called my mom. That's when I fell apart again. We talked for 1/2 hour. I wish she wasn't so worried. I can usually handle myself. Now I've got the mission home #. I sure hope I can get to church soon. And meet people. And stop crying. This week has been really awful. I sure home going to Normandy and Holland and Belgium are better than this! Mom said she is going to send recipes and cross stitch which should arrive Saturday. Late now, after 1 a.m.
Bon Soir
Bon Nuit
Dormi Bien
I am so upset. I keep eating and eating and I'm going ruin everything. I worked so hard to lose weight and being here is making me fat. I'm going to forget how to play piano and flut and I'm never gonna be able to stand and march for 3 hours. I WANT TO GO HOME!!!Why is this so hard? Why? It as supposed to be fun wasn't it?No - just 'the experience of a lifetime'. I guess it is definately that. I hope I never have to do anything like this again. it wouldn't be so bad with friends. I'd probably be really great.
I did cry, for over an hour. I walked through the country crying. Steven the lawyer I met my first Sunday asked if I wanted a ride but silly me said no. Maybe he wants to be my friend. After I came home I cried again. I just felt miserable today. Then I slept a little. Then I finally pulled myself together so I could be sociable with Colette and Decide.
About 10 while we were eating Jeanette Berry called and we talked for 10 minutes. I managed to stay together and she called my mom. That's when I fell apart again. We talked for 1/2 hour. I wish she wasn't so worried. I can usually handle myself. Now I've got the mission home #. I sure hope I can get to church soon. And meet people. And stop crying. This week has been really awful. I sure home going to Normandy and Holland and Belgium are better than this! Mom said she is going to send recipes and cross stitch which should arrive Saturday. Late now, after 1 a.m.
Bon Soir
Bon Nuit
Dormi Bien
Saturday, July 26, 1986
07/26/86 Samedi (Saturday) Half-way!
Je t'aime moi non plus! That means I love you, me I don't. Great, huh?
I'm gonna say it when I'm confused or when I love something and I hate it - like this trip! I had a real nice day. Decide and I sat around after breakfast and lunch singing songs from the album Je t'aime noi non plus into the tape recorder. Mostly love for sale.
Then Colette drove us to Chantilly and we all walked around until 8:00. Now we'll wait until about 10 for chicken. We talked a lot about love today. Also French men. He says frenchmen are becoming more feminine and creative. He said he loves everything and is in love with different people in different ways. Also he says that the French religion is literature, art and music. French people hate American TV & Reagan and they love American movies.
Decide says I should take longs walks through the country and find a friend and go and discovery Paris. I think it would be fun but I'm afraid I would get lost and not find my way back. I really wish I had someone to buddy around with always.
Decide si great but he's only here sometimes, ya know?
I had a great day and now I feel like crying. I'm so homesick. In one week we are going somewhere?
Bonsoir
Bonnuit
Dormi Bien!
I'm gonna say it when I'm confused or when I love something and I hate it - like this trip! I had a real nice day. Decide and I sat around after breakfast and lunch singing songs from the album Je t'aime noi non plus into the tape recorder. Mostly love for sale.
Then Colette drove us to Chantilly and we all walked around until 8:00. Now we'll wait until about 10 for chicken. We talked a lot about love today. Also French men. He says frenchmen are becoming more feminine and creative. He said he loves everything and is in love with different people in different ways. Also he says that the French religion is literature, art and music. French people hate American TV & Reagan and they love American movies.
Decide says I should take longs walks through the country and find a friend and go and discovery Paris. I think it would be fun but I'm afraid I would get lost and not find my way back. I really wish I had someone to buddy around with always.
Decide si great but he's only here sometimes, ya know?
I had a great day and now I feel like crying. I'm so homesick. In one week we are going somewhere?
Bonsoir
Bonnuit
Dormi Bien!
Friday, July 25, 1986
07/25/86 Vendredi (Friday) Missing home
I think this is the hardest thing I've ever done in my entire life. Leaving everything that I really loved for something I had no idea what it would be like. I think before I left I was one of the happiest people in the world. Everything was going my way. I'm not totally unhappy now but I miss not being totally happy. I miss not being about to get up early and see my friends. I miss working and marching and driving and freedom and talking and understanding and Joe. Especially Joe. Even though I wouldn't have him even if I was home. I am feeling sort of locked up inside myself. I'm becoming a book work again. Escaping reality by constant studying.
I think it is good because I do have lots of work to do but bad because I'm withdrawing from life. It is so hard not to be able to explain what you want or need or anything and not being able to understand what others expect of you. I think the next month will be more difficult than the first because I've already discovered the patters and everything isn't new and exciting anymore. I hope I'm wrong, I really do.
After lunch Decide came back and then these 2 guys came over and then Isabella - I met her before - until 4 or so. Everybody sat around talking and then isabella asked if I would like to go shopping with her. She is 20 and very nice. After shopping we listened to music at her house (which is only about 1/2 or 1K away) maybe another time we will listen to music because it is getting late. Maybe I have a friend here afterall!
Decide and I will probably stay up until 1 watching TV and talking again because another great film is on tonight!
I think it is good because I do have lots of work to do but bad because I'm withdrawing from life. It is so hard not to be able to explain what you want or need or anything and not being able to understand what others expect of you. I think the next month will be more difficult than the first because I've already discovered the patters and everything isn't new and exciting anymore. I hope I'm wrong, I really do.
After lunch Decide came back and then these 2 guys came over and then Isabella - I met her before - until 4 or so. Everybody sat around talking and then isabella asked if I would like to go shopping with her. She is 20 and very nice. After shopping we listened to music at her house (which is only about 1/2 or 1K away) maybe another time we will listen to music because it is getting late. Maybe I have a friend here afterall!
Decide and I will probably stay up until 1 watching TV and talking again because another great film is on tonight!
Thursday, July 24, 1986
07/24/86 Jeudi (Thursday) Post office and hoping to see Tonya
Went to the post office again today. Another 17 F. I've sent almost $20 in mail and it is only half over on Saturday! All my pens are going bad and my pencils are dull.
We took a ride today to see her friend and she wasn't there. On the way back Colette totally flipped out at everything - including me!
I wanted to go home so bad. I still do. But Tonya called and I feel a little better. I talked with Colette and I still don't know when we are going to Holland but I found out we are going back to Honfleur! Yea! And on the way back we can pick up Tonya and she can stay here for a couple of days. Super cool! I love Honfleur and I really want to see Tonya!
I was looking at all the dates and although we will spend some time traveling there is still a lot of time for bad weeks like this one! Maybe Julien will come back in between our trips. I sure hope someone does. Anyone! Please!
Bonsoir
Bon Nuit
Dormi Bien
We took a ride today to see her friend and she wasn't there. On the way back Colette totally flipped out at everything - including me!
I wanted to go home so bad. I still do. But Tonya called and I feel a little better. I talked with Colette and I still don't know when we are going to Holland but I found out we are going back to Honfleur! Yea! And on the way back we can pick up Tonya and she can stay here for a couple of days. Super cool! I love Honfleur and I really want to see Tonya!
I was looking at all the dates and although we will spend some time traveling there is still a lot of time for bad weeks like this one! Maybe Julien will come back in between our trips. I sure hope someone does. Anyone! Please!
Bonsoir
Bon Nuit
Dormi Bien
Wednesday, July 23, 1986
07/23/86 Mercredi (Wednesday) Future hopes for life
I did absolutely nothig today. Well - ok, a little.
I finished up some history and started the second half of chapter 24. No mail today. I guess 4 letters yesterday, what do I expect? I don't know.
I sat in the sun all day and thought about things. Especially Joe. I really love him I think but we are so different. I'm not sure he would want the kind of life I want. I have to wonder if I really know what I want. I want a temple marriage and lots of kids in a happy loving home. It doesn't matter how big the house is just so there is love and happiness. Forever!
Bonsoir
BonNuit
Dorm Bien
I finished up some history and started the second half of chapter 24. No mail today. I guess 4 letters yesterday, what do I expect? I don't know.
I sat in the sun all day and thought about things. Especially Joe. I really love him I think but we are so different. I'm not sure he would want the kind of life I want. I have to wonder if I really know what I want. I want a temple marriage and lots of kids in a happy loving home. It doesn't matter how big the house is just so there is love and happiness. Forever!
Bonsoir
BonNuit
Dorm Bien
Tuesday, July 22, 1986
07/22/86 Mardi (Tuesday) Letters from home
I didn't go anywhere but shopping today. I didn't want to.
As I was eating Collete handed me 3 letters. I was so happy! One from Grams and Gramps, Rob and Linda.
Well I opened Linda's first because I knew what the others said. Inside Lindas was a note from Joe. Before I read Linda's I opened Joes. It was real short but it said everything I needed to hear. I cried all day today. He said he loves me - I love him too. I think I have been trying to ignore my feelings but I can't. I really love him. Of course we couldn't ever have a life together unless he cahnged but maybe that is possible. I wrote him back that I love him and perhaps if some things changed we could be together again.
Also filled him in on life here.
I also wrote Rob that he should forget me - I can't keep pretending - not pretending but I can never love him the way I love Joe. I think he'll be upset but I have to get all this straightened out before I get back.
I sent off 3 letter today and then wrote 4 more. Now I've got to go to the post office again. But these don't need mailed immediately.
My stomach is still messed up. I fed my hamburg to the dogs. They are good for something. Maybe it is just because I've been upset. I don't know.
I sure wish Decide was here to talk to.
I've got to get out of this awful depression. It is really making me homesick. Although going home wouldn't get me to Joe anyway.
Maybe I'm just stupid for loving him - 4 years ia a very long time! Can it last so long?
As I was eating Collete handed me 3 letters. I was so happy! One from Grams and Gramps, Rob and Linda.
Well I opened Linda's first because I knew what the others said. Inside Lindas was a note from Joe. Before I read Linda's I opened Joes. It was real short but it said everything I needed to hear. I cried all day today. He said he loves me - I love him too. I think I have been trying to ignore my feelings but I can't. I really love him. Of course we couldn't ever have a life together unless he cahnged but maybe that is possible. I wrote him back that I love him and perhaps if some things changed we could be together again.
Also filled him in on life here.
I also wrote Rob that he should forget me - I can't keep pretending - not pretending but I can never love him the way I love Joe. I think he'll be upset but I have to get all this straightened out before I get back.
I sent off 3 letter today and then wrote 4 more. Now I've got to go to the post office again. But these don't need mailed immediately.
My stomach is still messed up. I fed my hamburg to the dogs. They are good for something. Maybe it is just because I've been upset. I don't know.
I sure wish Decide was here to talk to.
I've got to get out of this awful depression. It is really making me homesick. Although going home wouldn't get me to Joe anyway.
Maybe I'm just stupid for loving him - 4 years ia a very long time! Can it last so long?
Monday, July 21, 1986
07/21/86 Lundi (Monday) Vaux Le Vicomte
Got a letter from Terry! I enjoyed it! Made me think of all the fun we had before I left. I miss her! And Tammy!
We went to see the Vaux Le Vicomte - a big castle with beautiful gardens and an equestrial garage. Really nice. It was 32 F and we spent the entire day there. All the ceilings had picture/paintings and all the walls - I would LOVE to live there - this is the first castle I've liked! It belonged to Napolean or Luis XVI -- I forget! I'll look later! It was beautiful though!
And the ladies dresses were long and full. I love them! I wish they were still in fashion now!
Everyone thinks my manners and the way I carry myself are very proper - they say pink is definately like me. It's kind of funny and nice. The priest calls me a jaunty jeual? -- pretty young girl -- every time I see him. It's nice!
I really have been feeling lousy! I can't shake whatever it is - it is milder now - today anyway!
Real tired and homesick Good night; Bonsoir; Bon Nuit; Dormi Bien
**I spoke un petit peu (very)!) francais today and Jerome even understood a little! He leaves Aout 5 (August 5) for England so we exchanged addresses today.
We went to see the Vaux Le Vicomte - a big castle with beautiful gardens and an equestrial garage. Really nice. It was 32 F and we spent the entire day there. All the ceilings had picture/paintings and all the walls - I would LOVE to live there - this is the first castle I've liked! It belonged to Napolean or Luis XVI -- I forget! I'll look later! It was beautiful though!
And the ladies dresses were long and full. I love them! I wish they were still in fashion now!
Everyone thinks my manners and the way I carry myself are very proper - they say pink is definately like me. It's kind of funny and nice. The priest calls me a jaunty jeual? -- pretty young girl -- every time I see him. It's nice!
I really have been feeling lousy! I can't shake whatever it is - it is milder now - today anyway!
Real tired and homesick Good night; Bonsoir; Bon Nuit; Dormi Bien
**I spoke un petit peu (very)!) francais today and Jerome even understood a little! He leaves Aout 5 (August 5) for England so we exchanged addresses today.
Sunday, July 20, 1986
07/20/86 Dimanche (Sunday) Reflection
3X more - don't know why! It's awful.
I slept late so we have no chance of going to church. I'm so mad at myself - I really wanted to go!
Last night I dreamed I had to go home right away and I didn't want to. When I got home I hated it and wanted to come back. Weird. Maybe I do like it here.
I called home at 1:30 p.m. here -- about 7:30 a.m. there. I figured they would be getting ready for church. I was right. One minute goes so quickly. I just said hi and gave my # then it was over. I didn't even cry! Amazing. I guess I'm finally in the routine but I sure wish there was more action!
Went to Jacques Andre Musee today. It was really nice. We saw all the room in the restore house except bedrooms. It was so huge!
On the way home we picked up pastries! Yum! I am really getting fat! I was working on my history in the sun laying down and Collette put on the hose. It leaked down the patio and ALL OVER EVERYTHING! except, luckily my finished work!
I've been thinking about things all day - I guess that the house I'm in and the people I've met aren't necessarily the "norm" for France. I have gotten to know the artists - like the ones you read about - never discovered until they are gone - weird lives - different ideas - outcasts of community.
Colette's husband was an artist and there is a whole room of art waiting to be discovered.
Decide even said himself that he knew what he was doing was good and different -but he didn't know how to sell himself. Maybe that is why it is so difficult to be an artist, writer or anything that takes great talent and something to sell. It is unlikely that under any other circumstances I would have gotten to know them - I mean -- really know them -- their feelings, fears and happiness and be accepted. They have taught me things about me that I never would have thought of. And about the world. And people. Rejection - Acceptance and true love of somethings you do even though noone else seems to like it.
Noone will ever understand what I've experienced and learned unless they also experience and learn in a similar way.
I think people are the same - different practices and customs, but the important stuff - the love - I think no matter where you went you'd find people like them and like me and like anyone else. It doesn't really matter that they eat lunch and dinner for over an hour each and their toilets flush funny and they don't all wear deodorant or anything else that is different because at heart people are all the same - some good, some bad but all people! I don't even know if I understand all this but it is true and I'm lad I got to know them and me!
I slept late so we have no chance of going to church. I'm so mad at myself - I really wanted to go!
Last night I dreamed I had to go home right away and I didn't want to. When I got home I hated it and wanted to come back. Weird. Maybe I do like it here.
I called home at 1:30 p.m. here -- about 7:30 a.m. there. I figured they would be getting ready for church. I was right. One minute goes so quickly. I just said hi and gave my # then it was over. I didn't even cry! Amazing. I guess I'm finally in the routine but I sure wish there was more action!
Went to Jacques Andre Musee today. It was really nice. We saw all the room in the restore house except bedrooms. It was so huge!
On the way home we picked up pastries! Yum! I am really getting fat! I was working on my history in the sun laying down and Collette put on the hose. It leaked down the patio and ALL OVER EVERYTHING! except, luckily my finished work!
I've been thinking about things all day - I guess that the house I'm in and the people I've met aren't necessarily the "norm" for France. I have gotten to know the artists - like the ones you read about - never discovered until they are gone - weird lives - different ideas - outcasts of community.
Colette's husband was an artist and there is a whole room of art waiting to be discovered.
Decide even said himself that he knew what he was doing was good and different -but he didn't know how to sell himself. Maybe that is why it is so difficult to be an artist, writer or anything that takes great talent and something to sell. It is unlikely that under any other circumstances I would have gotten to know them - I mean -- really know them -- their feelings, fears and happiness and be accepted. They have taught me things about me that I never would have thought of. And about the world. And people. Rejection - Acceptance and true love of somethings you do even though noone else seems to like it.
Noone will ever understand what I've experienced and learned unless they also experience and learn in a similar way.
I think people are the same - different practices and customs, but the important stuff - the love - I think no matter where you went you'd find people like them and like me and like anyone else. It doesn't really matter that they eat lunch and dinner for over an hour each and their toilets flush funny and they don't all wear deodorant or anything else that is different because at heart people are all the same - some good, some bad but all people! I don't even know if I understand all this but it is true and I'm lad I got to know them and me!
Saturday, July 19, 1986
07/19/86 Samedi (Saturday) Pierrefond Le Chateau and fighting sickness
My stomach is feeling better. I was sick only 2X more during the night. Of course how could I get sick - nothing else left in my belly to get rid of!
It is so stupid to get up early here. They stay up until 11 or 12 or 1 and then stay in bed until 10 or later. I have the hardest time sitting around watching TV I don't understand so I either sleep 10 to 10 or else get up early and have to be real quiet and wait until Collette gets up to take my bath. Yuk either way! I miss camp!
Today we went to see Pierrefond Le Chateau. A huge castle. It was okay. I wouldn't want to live in any castles I've seen here though - HUGE PLAIN and COLD. YUK!
I am still getting sick. 3X more today. Just a few minutes ago. Gross! I'm not sure what from. Oh well. College wants me to go to the dr's. She doesn't even know I've been getting sick - she thinks I've got a cold and asthma!
Today was pretty good. I got a letter from Karen and Andrea! Made my day even better!
Hopefully tomorrow we'll go to church. Je ne sais pas!
Nothing new - Market, pharmacy, no hamburgers today or last night!!!! (But 3 or 4 in the fridge -- vomit!)
Bonsoir - bonnnuit
dormi bien!
It is so stupid to get up early here. They stay up until 11 or 12 or 1 and then stay in bed until 10 or later. I have the hardest time sitting around watching TV I don't understand so I either sleep 10 to 10 or else get up early and have to be real quiet and wait until Collette gets up to take my bath. Yuk either way! I miss camp!
Today we went to see Pierrefond Le Chateau. A huge castle. It was okay. I wouldn't want to live in any castles I've seen here though - HUGE PLAIN and COLD. YUK!
I am still getting sick. 3X more today. Just a few minutes ago. Gross! I'm not sure what from. Oh well. College wants me to go to the dr's. She doesn't even know I've been getting sick - she thinks I've got a cold and asthma!
Today was pretty good. I got a letter from Karen and Andrea! Made my day even better!
Hopefully tomorrow we'll go to church. Je ne sais pas!
Nothing new - Market, pharmacy, no hamburgers today or last night!!!! (But 3 or 4 in the fridge -- vomit!)
Bonsoir - bonnnuit
dormi bien!
Friday, July 18, 1986
07/18/86 Vendredi (Friday) Sick day and trying to learn French
I spent most of the day sleeping. In the morning we went to the post office and took that guy (Claude) to a place for a job. He didn't get it. I skipped lunch because my stomach was upset. I got sick only 2X. My head has been pounding and I get dizzy if I stand up too quickly. I went down to the telephone and tried to call mom only it doesn't take 10F pieces so I didn't have enough. I guess I really shouldn't call anyway. I'll want to go home.
After my short walk my asthma started up - figures huh? For diner I had a peach and mashed potatoes (boxed kind). I think I may turn in early so I can feel better tomorrow.
Colette is trying to help me learn french. She says things in French and if I don't get it she say it in English...slowly even! I'm really gonna try to get this. I sure wish mom would send my books and some recipes though. Next Saturday this is half over - weird! I don't think this diary will last!
Bon Soir
After my short walk my asthma started up - figures huh? For diner I had a peach and mashed potatoes (boxed kind). I think I may turn in early so I can feel better tomorrow.
Colette is trying to help me learn french. She says things in French and if I don't get it she say it in English...slowly even! I'm really gonna try to get this. I sure wish mom would send my books and some recipes though. Next Saturday this is half over - weird! I don't think this diary will last!
Bon Soir
Thursday, July 17, 1986
07/17/86 Jeudi (Thursday) Visting Jerome and frustrated with learning French
Relaxed day today. It was really nice and sunny so I sat on the patio and read after lunch until 3 p.m. It was really nice. We went to Jeromes and they talked until 6:30. I was so bored. I enjoyed reading much more. We went to the grocery store and tried some other things trying to find cottage cheese. Getting closer - I now have ricotta cheese - I like it the same as cottage cheese is ok.
I think Colette is getting frustrated because my French is so bad. I would probably do ok but I can't stand trying to talk with her. She mumbles and talks real fast - I get SO FRUSTRATED - so instead I ignore her.
I was listening to them talk for a little while and I understood lots of it - I was surprised. Then I got frustrated so I started day dreaming. I really am confused about things. I can't believe it's almost a month already! Some days go so quickly and others...
I really want to play piano. I'm going to read a french book that Julien said was good since I've got time on my hands and I'm bored with history.
Bonsoir!
I think Colette is getting frustrated because my French is so bad. I would probably do ok but I can't stand trying to talk with her. She mumbles and talks real fast - I get SO FRUSTRATED - so instead I ignore her.
I was listening to them talk for a little while and I understood lots of it - I was surprised. Then I got frustrated so I started day dreaming. I really am confused about things. I can't believe it's almost a month already! Some days go so quickly and others...
I really want to play piano. I'm going to read a french book that Julien said was good since I've got time on my hands and I'm bored with history.
Bonsoir!
Wednesday, July 16, 1986
07/16/86 Mercredi (Wednesday) Meeting new people, dishes and a piano
I really miss those guys! They made everything so exciting - something different all the time and good food too! Now I'm back to hamburgers! Yuk.
I met another of Colett's friends today. She had a neighbor who was 25. Once again within 10 minutes of talking he wanted to know if I had a boyfriend here or at home etc. What is it with these guys? He wasn't even French! He was from Pakastan. He was nice but a little too much -- know it all. I will see him again Friday- Yuk!
Tomorrow we aren't going to Paris - too hot. Instead we are going to Jeromes.
I don't remember if I wrote this in here before but I do the dishes everyday. It isn't so bad though because it is usually only 2 or 3 or us.
I found a piano today. It is only 2.5 miles away. It is in a nursing home where we went to church. Unfortunately I had no music but Collette said we can go back sometime. The father is really nice. He says I am welcome to play! Super!
Maybe the next 10 days won't be so bad!
I can't stop thinking about Jillian and the things he said. Why do they make sense? He really has made me think. Maybe I just like him or something. It's weird! Bonsoir
I met another of Colett's friends today. She had a neighbor who was 25. Once again within 10 minutes of talking he wanted to know if I had a boyfriend here or at home etc. What is it with these guys? He wasn't even French! He was from Pakastan. He was nice but a little too much -- know it all. I will see him again Friday- Yuk!
Tomorrow we aren't going to Paris - too hot. Instead we are going to Jeromes.
I don't remember if I wrote this in here before but I do the dishes everyday. It isn't so bad though because it is usually only 2 or 3 or us.
I found a piano today. It is only 2.5 miles away. It is in a nursing home where we went to church. Unfortunately I had no music but Collette said we can go back sometime. The father is really nice. He says I am welcome to play! Super!
Maybe the next 10 days won't be so bad!
I can't stop thinking about Jillian and the things he said. Why do they make sense? He really has made me think. Maybe I just like him or something. It's weird! Bonsoir
Tuesday, July 15, 1986
07/15/86 Mardi (Tuesday) Educated by a different bunch of people, question life
I finally woke up at 12:45 -- wooh - late! Today was kind of laid back and nice. We went for another walk today. We walked through the wheat field, smelled stuff, ate wild fruits, had an apple fight, lounged out in a cow field and headed back. We got home around 6 p.m.
Jillian and I talked again in Decide's room for another hour or so. He is very nice and I'm really shocked at how polite they are to the kind of life they live.
Jullian is 23 and has no home. He just lives in empty homes with friends (squatter) and steals what he needs. How can he do that and be such a kind and gentle polite person?
We te dinner around 9 until 10 then everybody packed up and we rode to the train station. I am so upset. I really like them. They are so different. After our walk they were hot so they all stripped naked and went in the sprinkler. Then they sat around drinking for awhile. So weird!
I kissed them all good bye and they said they would surprise me sometime and drop by. Probably won't see them for a month because in 10 days I leave for Holland for a week. For the next 10 days I will be alone with Collette. What will I don? I have finally gotten used to staying up until morning, sleeping until 2. Walking 2 hours and eating really late dinners. I like it. Oh well. In 2 days I will go to Paris and see that guy and his mom. (At least I think that is what's doing!) Je ne sais pas!
I'm a little confused about things after talking with Julien. He made everything sound like it was supposed to be unstructured and free and you should give and receive pleasure because it was right. He said if I couldn't explain why not than I didn't really believe - Maybe I'm not a good Mormon, maybe I'm a clone.
Jillian and I talked again in Decide's room for another hour or so. He is very nice and I'm really shocked at how polite they are to the kind of life they live.
Jullian is 23 and has no home. He just lives in empty homes with friends (squatter) and steals what he needs. How can he do that and be such a kind and gentle polite person?
We te dinner around 9 until 10 then everybody packed up and we rode to the train station. I am so upset. I really like them. They are so different. After our walk they were hot so they all stripped naked and went in the sprinkler. Then they sat around drinking for awhile. So weird!
I kissed them all good bye and they said they would surprise me sometime and drop by. Probably won't see them for a month because in 10 days I leave for Holland for a week. For the next 10 days I will be alone with Collette. What will I don? I have finally gotten used to staying up until morning, sleeping until 2. Walking 2 hours and eating really late dinners. I like it. Oh well. In 2 days I will go to Paris and see that guy and his mom. (At least I think that is what's doing!) Je ne sais pas!
I'm a little confused about things after talking with Julien. He made everything sound like it was supposed to be unstructured and free and you should give and receive pleasure because it was right. He said if I couldn't explain why not than I didn't really believe - Maybe I'm not a good Mormon, maybe I'm a clone.
Monday, July 14, 1986
07/14/86 Lundi (Monday) Waking up to a naked dude...awkward!
I spent most of today trying to recuperate from last night! My allergies are real bad again.
For diner we had a real neat platter. In the center of the table was a plate with sausage type meat, tomatoes and leave. Everybody had a knife and fork and took what they wanted. Bread was on the side.
Tonight is also national fest but I don't know what is going on yet. They may all leave me here. I don't know. If they do I'll go to the village party alone. I know a few guys.
Nobody left. They waited for midnight to eat and then sat around outside singing and talking until 2:30 a.m. Two more guys came to stay over. Julian, Cami's brother and Etienne. Julienne and I talked for an hour. He hates government and religion so it was interesting! He was also kaing his moves.
I don't know what it is with these French guys. He is real nice though. Radster type - shaved sides etc.
It is almost 4 and I don't see much possibility for sleep soon!
I woke up at 6:45 to find Jullian sitting by my bed looking at me. He was naked. His little bed was next to mine and he started licking me. I told him I wasn't interested and he couldn't understand. Oh well. He also didn't understand why I wore PJ's etc so I think he was hurt but what's a person to do? I'm not sleeping with every French guy that makes a move -- or ANY French guy as far as that goes!
For diner we had a real neat platter. In the center of the table was a plate with sausage type meat, tomatoes and leave. Everybody had a knife and fork and took what they wanted. Bread was on the side.
Tonight is also national fest but I don't know what is going on yet. They may all leave me here. I don't know. If they do I'll go to the village party alone. I know a few guys.
Nobody left. They waited for midnight to eat and then sat around outside singing and talking until 2:30 a.m. Two more guys came to stay over. Julian, Cami's brother and Etienne. Julienne and I talked for an hour. He hates government and religion so it was interesting! He was also kaing his moves.
I don't know what it is with these French guys. He is real nice though. Radster type - shaved sides etc.
It is almost 4 and I don't see much possibility for sleep soon!
I woke up at 6:45 to find Jullian sitting by my bed looking at me. He was naked. His little bed was next to mine and he started licking me. I told him I wasn't interested and he couldn't understand. Oh well. He also didn't understand why I wore PJ's etc so I think he was hurt but what's a person to do? I'm not sleeping with every French guy that makes a move -- or ANY French guy as far as that goes!
Sunday, July 13, 1986
07/13/86 Dimanche (Sunday) Strange encounter leads to 15 K walk home
Started out as being a really lousy day - in fact the whole day was lousy!
I studied until lunch and then Decide, Cami and Stephen and I went for a walk. Which was also lousy!
Sometime between 6 and now though, all that changed.
Around 9 when we were about to eat some of Colette's friends dropped by. They have a boy my age. They stayed until 11 and invited me to come see them in Paris - which was great - he seems very nice! So for dinner I was in a good mood and we ate until 12:30 then went down the street to the center of the village to join the National Fete (party)!
It was really great. everyone was very happy (drunk) and some guy who spoke know English was telling everyone to tell me he loved me and wanted me to come with him for a walk. Smashed as he was I gladly declined. About 2:30 the party broke up and we realized we had forgotten to pickup their friend at the train. So we hurried back to the party. Some of her (Cami's friends) were there and they were too drunk to drive. So I drove 7 of us (a no, no!) well, half way to the train but then the owner decided we couldn't use the car anymore.
Stephen got me a flag of France while we waited for the drunks to hobble inside. Then we crashed an all block party and Cami bummed a ride to the station - only the driver wanted something in return - unfortunately that was me! Well when he stopped the care and we weren't at the train station - or anywhere near it and he started making his moves -- I got out. Of course he also followed. We fought a little (his ring came off in the process) and then he returned to the car. This is at about 5 a.m. He drove us to the station only to find their friend wasn't there anymore. He decided he was too tired to drive anymore and parked the car.
I was tired of waiting so I walked the 15K home. We all met up about 1/2K from home and returned at 8:30 a.m. We were out all night! Totally crazy! I still have the flag and the ring to show for it.
We had breakfast and then headed to bed.
I got a chance to meet 4 of the guys who live around here. I don't know any girls still. (Well Cami but she lives somewhere else)
1 girl and 7 guys = weird!
I studied until lunch and then Decide, Cami and Stephen and I went for a walk. Which was also lousy!
Sometime between 6 and now though, all that changed.
Around 9 when we were about to eat some of Colette's friends dropped by. They have a boy my age. They stayed until 11 and invited me to come see them in Paris - which was great - he seems very nice! So for dinner I was in a good mood and we ate until 12:30 then went down the street to the center of the village to join the National Fete (party)!
It was really great. everyone was very happy (drunk) and some guy who spoke know English was telling everyone to tell me he loved me and wanted me to come with him for a walk. Smashed as he was I gladly declined. About 2:30 the party broke up and we realized we had forgotten to pickup their friend at the train. So we hurried back to the party. Some of her (Cami's friends) were there and they were too drunk to drive. So I drove 7 of us (a no, no!) well, half way to the train but then the owner decided we couldn't use the car anymore.
Stephen got me a flag of France while we waited for the drunks to hobble inside. Then we crashed an all block party and Cami bummed a ride to the station - only the driver wanted something in return - unfortunately that was me! Well when he stopped the care and we weren't at the train station - or anywhere near it and he started making his moves -- I got out. Of course he also followed. We fought a little (his ring came off in the process) and then he returned to the car. This is at about 5 a.m. He drove us to the station only to find their friend wasn't there anymore. He decided he was too tired to drive anymore and parked the car.
I was tired of waiting so I walked the 15K home. We all met up about 1/2K from home and returned at 8:30 a.m. We were out all night! Totally crazy! I still have the flag and the ring to show for it.
We had breakfast and then headed to bed.
I got a chance to meet 4 of the guys who live around here. I don't know any girls still. (Well Cami but she lives somewhere else)
1 girl and 7 guys = weird!
Saturday, July 12, 1986
07/12/86 Samedi (Saturday) Fromage blanc is not cottage cheese
I finally got up the nerve to ask for cottage cheese. Of course it has a different name in French. I described it to Decide and he said to ask for fromage blanc. Well I asked but I got sour cream not cottage cheese. Now I've got a whole container of sour cream and no chips and I still don't know the name for cottage cheese!
Regular Saturday - we went to the market then I did History all day. Took a walk around 2. Pretty nice out. Sunny and mild. I guess the cold wave is over. So is the great fun of Normandy. I miss Armenda already. She is so sweet! Maybe we'll go back. I sure would enjoy that - especially if it was beach weather!
It is so strange - I can't get used to eating dinner at 8 p.m. I am always hungry around 5 or 6.
I feel very much like I am being held up in a bottle. The "real me" could never spend all day doing history and not mind too much. I could never sit around all day everyday (minus afternoons) and only watch tv, eat and read and do history. It just isn't me. I prefer the busy non-stop action life - I think I am safely settle and I might even enjoy this - but the person everybody at home knows isn't all here - cause if I was I'd go crazy! There really isn't anyone my age. I walked around and everyone is real old or little kids. Monday is the revolution day. What will I do?
Another little hash party last night - this time at 2 a.. with three people. My asthma had been giving me trouble to start with but after that - I was in pain all night and I still am. I took medicine but so far it hasn't helped at all. I think they were upset because I wouldn't come out and talk with them but I was wheezing so loud I could hardly breathe let alone talk. I still get very dizzy when I stand up and I sound absolutely awful.
Regular Saturday - we went to the market then I did History all day. Took a walk around 2. Pretty nice out. Sunny and mild. I guess the cold wave is over. So is the great fun of Normandy. I miss Armenda already. She is so sweet! Maybe we'll go back. I sure would enjoy that - especially if it was beach weather!
It is so strange - I can't get used to eating dinner at 8 p.m. I am always hungry around 5 or 6.
I feel very much like I am being held up in a bottle. The "real me" could never spend all day doing history and not mind too much. I could never sit around all day everyday (minus afternoons) and only watch tv, eat and read and do history. It just isn't me. I prefer the busy non-stop action life - I think I am safely settle and I might even enjoy this - but the person everybody at home knows isn't all here - cause if I was I'd go crazy! There really isn't anyone my age. I walked around and everyone is real old or little kids. Monday is the revolution day. What will I do?
Another little hash party last night - this time at 2 a.. with three people. My asthma had been giving me trouble to start with but after that - I was in pain all night and I still am. I took medicine but so far it hasn't helped at all. I think they were upset because I wouldn't come out and talk with them but I was wheezing so loud I could hardly breathe let alone talk. I still get very dizzy when I stand up and I sound absolutely awful.
Friday, July 11, 1986
07/11/86 Vendredi (Friday) Good bye to Honfleur
Busy and fun week has come to an end. After lunch at the same restaurant we said good-bey to Armenda Roland and Honfleur and headed back home.
I am sad to leave Armenda. I really like her. She is a super cool lady. We exchanged addresses so perhaps we will keep in touch.
We had to go shopping for dinner. I got a big letter from home and a letter from Rob. I really enjoyed reading them. I wrote back. It took me until 10:30.
Decide and I are staying up watching some movie.
Bonsoir!
I am sad to leave Armenda. I really like her. She is a super cool lady. We exchanged addresses so perhaps we will keep in touch.
We had to go shopping for dinner. I got a big letter from home and a letter from Rob. I really enjoyed reading them. I wrote back. It took me until 10:30.
Decide and I are staying up watching some movie.
Bonsoir!
Thursday, July 10, 1986
07/10/86 Jeudi (Thursday) Beach and Chinese Food in Trouville
I finally made it to the real beach - with sand, boardwalk and water. And it RAINED! And it was FREEZING! So we walked the boards in the rain. I love it!
When we were so cold and wet that we couldn't stand it anymore we went back to the car.
And then something so amazing and unbelievable happened - I ate Chinese Food! Not just the side stuff for people who don't like Chinese - but real Chinese menu food. I had little ravioli noodles w/who knows what inside as an appetizer and then chicken and veggies in curry. Also rice dessert was the greatest. I had apple something and it was little apple rings with crepes or something on top. Yum!
After lunch we walked all through Trouville. We saw an aquarium then went to Cote de Grace. It is a neat little cathedral church. Had dinner here - Pizza! And watched TV again.
Reeally great day (would have been great to go swimming but...)
Picked up some hitchers today from Holland who are touring France by hitchhiking around -- Cool!!!
Bonsoir
When we were so cold and wet that we couldn't stand it anymore we went back to the car.
And then something so amazing and unbelievable happened - I ate Chinese Food! Not just the side stuff for people who don't like Chinese - but real Chinese menu food. I had little ravioli noodles w/who knows what inside as an appetizer and then chicken and veggies in curry. Also rice dessert was the greatest. I had apple something and it was little apple rings with crepes or something on top. Yum!
After lunch we walked all through Trouville. We saw an aquarium then went to Cote de Grace. It is a neat little cathedral church. Had dinner here - Pizza! And watched TV again.
Reeally great day (would have been great to go swimming but...)
Picked up some hitchers today from Holland who are touring France by hitchhiking around -- Cool!!!
Bonsoir
Wednesday, July 9, 1986
07/09/86 Mecredi (Wednesday) St. Michael Monestary
We traveled to St. Michael Monestary this morning. It took us 5.5 hours because they kept getting lost. St. Michael is a very big castle like city built up in the middle of where the ocean usually is. It was low tide so there wasn't much water - but sometimes you can only get there by boat. It was rally neat! I enjoyed today! The ride back was quicker 2h45m. Then we ate at the same restaurant again
Oh - Mom - guess what - I ate fish soup. ME - Amazing?! Also prune jelly, hot chocolate, cherries, apple cider, dog food (patre) - I tried oysters - yuck! They are amazed that I don't like sea food - that's why I always have hamburger. She thinks it is all I eat. I have to find out if they have cottage cheese here! I am really getting fat! We have eaten out so much this week. It is great food but I'm not gonna fit in my pants soon!
They park on the sidewalks here. It is already 10:30 and I wasn't bored at all today. Amazing.
Bonsoir
Oh - Mom - guess what - I ate fish soup. ME - Amazing?! Also prune jelly, hot chocolate, cherries, apple cider, dog food (patre) - I tried oysters - yuck! They are amazed that I don't like sea food - that's why I always have hamburger. She thinks it is all I eat. I have to find out if they have cottage cheese here! I am really getting fat! We have eaten out so much this week. It is great food but I'm not gonna fit in my pants soon!
They park on the sidewalks here. It is already 10:30 and I wasn't bored at all today. Amazing.
Bonsoir
Monday, July 7, 1986
07/07/86 Lundi in Honflour
Today was the best day I have had since I left - except for maybe the last day of orientation.
We traveled to Normandie today to Honflour. It was a trip in itself. Colette got lost again and was flipping out as usual. Then she decided to beat the system and she went on the highway the wrong way. I was praying big time that she would figure out what she was doing before we became dead meat. All the cars were flashing their lights and she finally realized what she had done.
I found out she has a soft spot for more than just animals - she always picks up hitch-hikers. Today we picked up two. They were a little hesitant about getting in because we had the funeral car and you can't see until you are in!
Honflour is great! I love it. It is so beautiful. It is a very old town and we are right by the harbor. There are ships everywhere. The little village has lots of shops, cafes, museums and churches. I would love to stay here!
Her friend is very nice. We walked around for about 2.5 hours through the town and then we had drinks in one of the cafes and dinner in this cute little restaurant. It was crepes. I had apple and eggs/gambon - very good! For dessert I had mysterie chantilly - It is the greatest ice cream dish w/whip top! I could eat it forever!
It seems as though all Colette's friends are single. Either divorced/died/bachelor. Interesting.
No windows here have screens. It is so strange. I thought it was just Colette's town but it seems to be a lot of France has no screens.
Tonight we are watching Far West '89. Another American film. Pretty good.
I thnk if I wasn't so afraid of messing up French I would speak ok. Instead I don't speak at all.
We will be here for 4 days. i found that out when Colette began ironing -- everything. Usually she only irons one outfit at a time. So I decided to ask how long we would be in Honflour. I love it!
We traveled to Normandie today to Honflour. It was a trip in itself. Colette got lost again and was flipping out as usual. Then she decided to beat the system and she went on the highway the wrong way. I was praying big time that she would figure out what she was doing before we became dead meat. All the cars were flashing their lights and she finally realized what she had done.
I found out she has a soft spot for more than just animals - she always picks up hitch-hikers. Today we picked up two. They were a little hesitant about getting in because we had the funeral car and you can't see until you are in!
Honflour is great! I love it. It is so beautiful. It is a very old town and we are right by the harbor. There are ships everywhere. The little village has lots of shops, cafes, museums and churches. I would love to stay here!
Her friend is very nice. We walked around for about 2.5 hours through the town and then we had drinks in one of the cafes and dinner in this cute little restaurant. It was crepes. I had apple and eggs/gambon - very good! For dessert I had mysterie chantilly - It is the greatest ice cream dish w/whip top! I could eat it forever!
It seems as though all Colette's friends are single. Either divorced/died/bachelor. Interesting.
No windows here have screens. It is so strange. I thought it was just Colette's town but it seems to be a lot of France has no screens.
Tonight we are watching Far West '89. Another American film. Pretty good.
I thnk if I wasn't so afraid of messing up French I would speak ok. Instead I don't speak at all.
We will be here for 4 days. i found that out when Colette began ironing -- everything. Usually she only irons one outfit at a time. So I decided to ask how long we would be in Honflour. I love it!
Sunday, July 6, 1986
07/06/86 Attended Mass
I went to church today - well kind of -- it was a mass held in the retirement home over in the next village. It was really neat. There was 2 young boys (9 - 10), myself, Colette, 4 other ladies and the priest. It was a nice service. Personal. Seems strange, there are thousands of cathedrals and they meet in a tiny room in a nursing home. I liked it. Even though I didn't understand it.
Decide came today. After lunch we played cards and then everybody kind of did their own thing. I've been reading and writing my brains out in history. I am determined to get this done. It is very difficult because many of the questions aren't in either of my books. So I just do what I can.
I have gained weight and I feel so awful about myself. I don't have the same happy appearance as I used to. Sometimes it is so hard to smile! All I ever do when we aren't out is eat and dream. 2 weeks. Only 7 weeks left.
I forgot to mention that Colette has a maid who comes every Monday. I think there is a pattern developing here:
Monday - maid/whatever
Tuesday - Friday - wahtever
Sat/Sun - Market, Decide, Church
Not too bad I guess. Tomorrow our "whatever" is Normandie. Should be nice. I'm not exactly sure what we are doing yet -- guess I'll find out! Bon Soir!
Decide came today. After lunch we played cards and then everybody kind of did their own thing. I've been reading and writing my brains out in history. I am determined to get this done. It is very difficult because many of the questions aren't in either of my books. So I just do what I can.
I have gained weight and I feel so awful about myself. I don't have the same happy appearance as I used to. Sometimes it is so hard to smile! All I ever do when we aren't out is eat and dream. 2 weeks. Only 7 weeks left.
I forgot to mention that Colette has a maid who comes every Monday. I think there is a pattern developing here:
Monday - maid/whatever
Tuesday - Friday - wahtever
Sat/Sun - Market, Decide, Church
Not too bad I guess. Tomorrow our "whatever" is Normandie. Should be nice. I'm not exactly sure what we are doing yet -- guess I'll find out! Bon Soir!
Saturday, July 5, 1986
7/5/86 Samedi Favorite sayings of Collette
7/5/86 Samedi
Today we went to the post office and the market. I sent another 6 letters and 6 postcards (40F) From now on I will only write when I get letters.
Today Sue sent me a letter. Of course she wasn't one of the people I wrote to because she knows everybody I wrote, oh well. Another letter to write.
Today was a real lazy day. Didn't do much. Read chapter 22 for History and started the questions. They have nothing to do with the chapter as far as I can see!
Some of Colette's favorite sayings are:
Oh..la..la..
Ca Suffit! (That's enough!)
Qu'est que fait? What are you doing?
Impossible
When she is talking to the dogs.
I still don't know all their names. Coca - cutest most loveable smelliest thing I ever met.
Tessibu - not sure which one she is.
Misty Gris - cat - always up in my room, cleanest animal she has
Zorro - oldest dog
Sometimes I think I could really like it here and then something comes on TV or a name of someone I care about is said or written somewhere and I just want them here now and I want to cry.
I think it's getting easier but I'm not sure.
It is awful, every day I have the same things for lunch and dinner. Hamburg and french fries or peas or something but always Hamburger.
I really love the cheeses here. They are so good. With bread! oh la la tres bien! I miss my chocolate!
Today we went to the post office and the market. I sent another 6 letters and 6 postcards (40F) From now on I will only write when I get letters.
Today Sue sent me a letter. Of course she wasn't one of the people I wrote to because she knows everybody I wrote, oh well. Another letter to write.
Today was a real lazy day. Didn't do much. Read chapter 22 for History and started the questions. They have nothing to do with the chapter as far as I can see!
Some of Colette's favorite sayings are:
Oh..la..la..
Ca Suffit! (That's enough!)
Qu'est que fait? What are you doing?
Impossible
When she is talking to the dogs.
I still don't know all their names. Coca - cutest most loveable smelliest thing I ever met.
Tessibu - not sure which one she is.
Misty Gris - cat - always up in my room, cleanest animal she has
Zorro - oldest dog
Sometimes I think I could really like it here and then something comes on TV or a name of someone I care about is said or written somewhere and I just want them here now and I want to cry.
I think it's getting easier but I'm not sure.
It is awful, every day I have the same things for lunch and dinner. Hamburg and french fries or peas or something but always Hamburger.
I really love the cheeses here. They are so good. With bread! oh la la tres bien! I miss my chocolate!
7/4/86 Independence Day!
7/4/86
Independence Day and I missed it! At this very minute everyone is probably just finished the 2nd parade and is going on to party.
I spent the day in Paris. We went to a really big mall with museums and things in it. A modern art type building. Outside people were all over the town sitting and shopping, drawing caricatures and playing instruments. It was really neat!
We walked through the very crowded streets to Notre Dam Cathedral. I wasn't impressed. Many of the other cathedrals were much more beautiful and a lot less crowded! Then we walked some more and saw a Monastery of Jerusalem -- really pretty and then finally the National Archives.
It took an hour and a half to get home because of all the traffic.
It was a nice day out.
We finally got hot water again!
Independence Day and I missed it! At this very minute everyone is probably just finished the 2nd parade and is going on to party.
I spent the day in Paris. We went to a really big mall with museums and things in it. A modern art type building. Outside people were all over the town sitting and shopping, drawing caricatures and playing instruments. It was really neat!
We walked through the very crowded streets to Notre Dam Cathedral. I wasn't impressed. Many of the other cathedrals were much more beautiful and a lot less crowded! Then we walked some more and saw a Monastery of Jerusalem -- really pretty and then finally the National Archives.
It took an hour and a half to get home because of all the traffic.
It was a nice day out.
We finally got hot water again!
Thursday, July 3, 1986
07/03/86 Missing home and sight seeing
07/03/86 Thursday
I think I've learned to tolerate some things. Since last Friday we've had no hot water and I've been taking COLD baths (no showers here!).
Also I think I might like animals except all the dogs here smell SO gross! Also they have fleas! There is one cat here that is ok. He looks like mittens only he doesn't have white paws. He is pretty clean too.
I have got to meet some people my age or I'll go crazy! I can't stand not going out and going things for a whole summer. I'll go nuts!
I miss home so much!
I guess I shouldn't complain. I do have a nice house and Colette is nice but when I think of what I gave up I want it all back. I loved my job, marching band, church, Rob, driving, freedom, understanding what people said, Mom, Dad, Becky, Ruth....EVERYTHING!!!
If I had some real friends here I would enjoy this A LOT MORE.
Today we went and saw a real big castle (Musee Jacques Andre) only we couldn't get in because it was closed. It was real neat. After that we drove to the Senlis Cathedral and walked around in there. It was very pretty. On the way to Chantille we picked up a hitch-hiker also going there. We went to the Parc du Chateau gardens. They are very big but also plain looking. They weren't worth 12F it cost to get in.
We then went to the Eqestrian Museum of Chantily (horses). We spent a few hours walking through and seeing the horses. It was neat. I enjoyed that. It was rather expensive - the reduced rate was 25F. I can't afford all these expensive places in one week!
Tomorrow I think we are going to Paris or Versaille. I can't be sure. Maybe we aren't going anywhere!
After dinner I went for a jog/walk around the village. It is very hilly so I jogged down the hills and walked up the hills. It felt good. This is the 2nd time I've gone. Except this time I went further and this time I'm wheezing!
If I keep eating the fattening hamburgers and bread all the time I'm going to come home fat -- and have fleas too! No one will love me then!
I keep hoping I'll meet someone my age - walking around or whatever - but it seems there is no one.
I wish there was a Mormon church, they'd have activities. Maybe I'll go catholic for the summer, or protestant. I don't like not going to church at all. It might become a habit!
I am so homesick I just want to cry! Tomorrow is the day of all the big parades and parties and everything and I'm going to miss it. And when it happens here I will have no friends to spend it with!
I knew I loved my life at home but I never knew how much! I am ALWAYS thinking about it!!! (that's not good. I need friends!)
I think I've learned to tolerate some things. Since last Friday we've had no hot water and I've been taking COLD baths (no showers here!).
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| Musee Jacques Andre |
I have got to meet some people my age or I'll go crazy! I can't stand not going out and going things for a whole summer. I'll go nuts!
I miss home so much!
I guess I shouldn't complain. I do have a nice house and Colette is nice but when I think of what I gave up I want it all back. I loved my job, marching band, church, Rob, driving, freedom, understanding what people said, Mom, Dad, Becky, Ruth....EVERYTHING!!!
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| Senlis Cathedral |
If I had some real friends here I would enjoy this A LOT MORE.
Today we went and saw a real big castle (Musee Jacques Andre) only we couldn't get in because it was closed. It was real neat. After that we drove to the Senlis Cathedral and walked around in there. It was very pretty. On the way to Chantille we picked up a hitch-hiker also going there. We went to the Parc du Chateau gardens. They are very big but also plain looking. They weren't worth 12F it cost to get in.
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| Chateau du Grand Jardin |
Tomorrow I think we are going to Paris or Versaille. I can't be sure. Maybe we aren't going anywhere!
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| Equestrian Museum of Chantilly |
After dinner I went for a jog/walk around the village. It is very hilly so I jogged down the hills and walked up the hills. It felt good. This is the 2nd time I've gone. Except this time I went further and this time I'm wheezing!
If I keep eating the fattening hamburgers and bread all the time I'm going to come home fat -- and have fleas too! No one will love me then!
I keep hoping I'll meet someone my age - walking around or whatever - but it seems there is no one.
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| Inside Equestrian Museum of Chantilly |
I am so homesick I just want to cry! Tomorrow is the day of all the big parades and parties and everything and I'm going to miss it. And when it happens here I will have no friends to spend it with!
I knew I loved my life at home but I never knew how much! I am ALWAYS thinking about it!!! (that's not good. I need friends!)
Wednesday, July 2, 1986
7/2/86 Ponies and Movies
7/2/86 Wednesday
As long as I'm doing something away from the house, or if we have company, than I am not homesick. Every morning I wake up and I'm dreaming about doing different things with everybody from home. I want to sleep longer so I can keep dreaming. I always hate getting up and facing reality.
Today was a pretty good day. I'm glad I got up. We drove out to "Cantelope" and I saw her pony. It was a very long drive and Colette didn't know where she was going so it was pretty amusing to listen to her yell at herself and her directions and anybody else who got in her way!
After lunch I went with Jerome and his best friend (missed his name) to see "Hitcher" Of course it was in French so I didn't get much but I think I understood a lot of it. Then we walked around the little town. His friend had to leave so Jerome and I walked around for 1 1/2 hours by ourselves. He is a little boring to talk to sometimes because all he talks about is history, movies and records. He's much more fun than Colette though because at least he attempts English and talks about something. Oh ya, he can't stop saying how wonderful France is -- I don't agree of course -- I still love America and want to go back but I guess he can love France if he wants.
What am I going to do all summer?!
Today was a pretty good day. I'm glad I got up. We drove out to "Cantelope" and I saw her pony. It was a very long drive and Colette didn't know where she was going so it was pretty amusing to listen to her yell at herself and her directions and anybody else who got in her way!
After lunch I went with Jerome and his best friend (missed his name) to see "Hitcher" Of course it was in French so I didn't get much but I think I understood a lot of it. Then we walked around the little town. His friend had to leave so Jerome and I walked around for 1 1/2 hours by ourselves. He is a little boring to talk to sometimes because all he talks about is history, movies and records. He's much more fun than Colette though because at least he attempts English and talks about something. Oh ya, he can't stop saying how wonderful France is -- I don't agree of course -- I still love America and want to go back but I guess he can love France if he wants.
What am I going to do all summer?!
Tuesday, July 1, 1986
07/01/86 Going up the Eiffel Tower
7/1/86 Tuesday
It is a good think I keep a diary or I'd never know one day from the next. I have seen a lot of really good movies. Of course they have been in French so I haven't necessarily understood all of what was going on!
After lunch we went to Paris. We went up to the 2nd floor of the Eiffel tower. It is kind of expensive (24F) It was really neat! I took a few pictures. We also drove around a bit. I met her sister and her niece. Very much rich snobs as far as I could tell. After that we went to St Germain Cathedral. I saw Jerome. Colette says we will go to Notre Dame and other places later on. She said next week we are going to Normandy. She is really funny. Always talking and murmuring in French. She will start saying something and then talk real quiet so I can't figure out the end of the sentence. I am finally beginning to understand a lot of what is going on - as long as people are talking at a slow to normal rate.
I got my first two letters today! Cool!! I was afraid my address was bad and nothing was going to come all summer!
I'm afraid I'm not going to have enough money. I've only spent $15 but I don't really get the F system yet. I always feel like I'm overspending.
Bon Soir
After lunch we went to Paris. We went up to the 2nd floor of the Eiffel tower. It is kind of expensive (24F) It was really neat! I took a few pictures. We also drove around a bit. I met her sister and her niece. Very much rich snobs as far as I could tell. After that we went to St Germain Cathedral. I saw Jerome. Colette says we will go to Notre Dame and other places later on. She said next week we are going to Normandy. She is really funny. Always talking and murmuring in French. She will start saying something and then talk real quiet so I can't figure out the end of the sentence. I am finally beginning to understand a lot of what is going on - as long as people are talking at a slow to normal rate.
I got my first two letters today! Cool!! I was afraid my address was bad and nothing was going to come all summer!
I'm afraid I'm not going to have enough money. I've only spent $15 but I don't really get the F system yet. I always feel like I'm overspending.
Bon Soir
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